HAPPY NEW YEARS everyone!!!! ( I know it's late but I figured what the heck)

Any ways as most of you know by now I will not be returning to Sam for this spring semester. Im hoping to be there, at the soonest, by fall. If not then, then hopefully a year from now we will just have to see how things pan out. I love every single one of you guys. Especially my new girlfriend Ashley (DUH) (but every knew that already)! So anyways to fill my time I will be working to earn some cash for school, an apartment, and a vehicle. Also anything else I might want.  For now I am just working at Schloztski's until I can find another job to take up more of my time at earn extra wages I need all the money I can get!! I talked to my dad about possibly getting extra funds from stocks or mutual funds. I want to some safe investing in order to earn extra cash quicker. So I just need to sit down and figure out what all of my possible options are to gain more money. 

So I got applications from Freebirds and the UPS Store today. UPS is hiring for full time postions. So if can get that that would be good so that I can get more hours during the day and earn more money. Plus if I get hired at Freebirds then it will be really close to UPS and I can just walk there. They are both in the same shopping center on Rock Prairie Road.

So anyway I hope to see everyone real soon. I can twait for my first visit. I want to see everyone so bad! I miss school! I want to be back soo bad! I can hardly wait to get back in!

Well HI-dee Di-dee everybody....

Things are going ok. I think my time is running short though however. I know I put myself where I am, but maybe Im notwhere Iam supposed to be right now.  This sounds sad I know I dont like the sound of it either. I love all the friends Ive made, but Ive been battling this mentally and emotionally for awhile now. Just havent really done much about it. It's kind of late though too. My options are running out as well as my time. I want to be here but I just dont think Im truly ready for all of this. This semester is rapidly coming to close. Im not too sure what to do. I've thought of resignation so that the grades dont show up on my transcript, but I dont know if thats the answer either. I hope God shows me a sign of what I should do. I hope I can be happy with whatever happens.

Well apparently, I've learned today that, Our (mine and Eric's) Astronomy teacher sounds a whole hell of a lot like Ross Gellar from FRIENDS! It's kind of weird and interesting at the same time. He's a cool teacher however AND he's from College Station.  Today in class we talked about calendars; the Gregorian, after Pope Gregory XIII, the Julian, after Julius Caesar, and a little bit about the Chinese calendar and how it is based off of Jupiters revolution around the sun. It takes 12 time as long for Jupiter to make one orbit as it does for us here on Earth. Thats why they have 12 symbols or animals for each of their years. Hence the year of the Ox, or monkey or whatever.

I hope I can get through my fucking day without a problem! But for some reason right now I can just feel it. Something is going to happen and probably b/c of this and the previous post. If not b/c of something else. (duh) But Fuck it! Why can't I throw curves at life? Life's always throwin me curves. Why cant life make Lemonade from lemons I give it?

WTFE!!!!!!! Sometimes I just feel like giving up, simply b/c I cant deal with life sometimes.  I just dont understand parts of it and others are just rediculous.

FUCK IT!!

Well, I hope everyone as a nice day!

Why is it that when your day is going just Great, fine and dandy something about it always seems to go wrong?

It fucking Sucks and i hate it!   Why cant people be more accepting and not worry about all the details? 

 Im sorry about those people that Ive wronged and/ or hurt! It was never my intent. And even when you think I dont mean it you dont know how wrong you are.  If I didnt mean something I say you would know, but there are just somethings that I mean good and well about.  I will always love and care about you. Even when/ if you dont care.  It so hard to talk to someone who just doesnt care anymore though. People should at least try to talk through their problems or at least say whats wrong. I realize we can learn from our mistakes, but if we dont even know what the mistake is then how can we become better?

Are we all just victims of this stupid game?

How are we supposed to react when people do things that make us feel like crap.

It's just not right. I dont know how many curves Im supposed to allow to be thrown at me before I actually hit one.  I may get mad before it happens and then.....Well dont be around, or be able to watch it all the way through.